This is my Abundance

How beautiful is love that it lights a passion so consuming words cannot describe.How deep does it go that someone will be in your mind through so many emotions and it still makes sense.How wonderful is that safety of knowing that you can tell them what you are feeling without filters and know that they can handle it.How sweet is the enthusiasm to tell them about the smallest of things knowing so well that even your greatest fears they are still your go person.
How surprising is it that you may miss the feeling as it grows on you.One day I thought I got it under control and the next I knew if I didn’t say something then maybe my soul would explode.
There’s is a gap in each one of us,the need to be with another human being.Fill a void,not be alone and it’s the rules of this game that have ruined this beautiful feeling.
For me I realized I had the gap even when I   was with a person.I have always had the gap,then one beautiful night while I was watching the moon in the village I realized I didn’t have it no more.I didn’t think much about it,that was many months ago or rather many moons ago.
The last few weeks I have written about so many things but today I write about love.I write about this freedom that I have.Knowing that I can love with my whole heart once again.Knowing I don’t have this gap anymore that the need to find someone is gone because I have found one.
I find peace in knowing that right this minute I am whole,I get to love freely,I get to smile. And even when I am terrified of what life keeps throwing,I know I can handle it.
Does it scare me that it’s just me,well no.See the thing about growing up is that not putting a timeline and expectations on things.Without swearing until death do us part like a person who doesn’t know life is fragile.
I know life is fragile and things change ,so I am accepting that fact with a lot of grace.So I will enjoy this moment,Loving with my whole, honoring this feeling.
Smiling through it all,I mean Christ came so that we can have life so we can have it in abundance.This is my abundance to enjoy this moment,to love,to express what is deep within me.I get to  be in this moment,no pressure,no rules ,no timeline just pure pure joy.

Loving me,who I am,who I am becoming. With every smile,every tear,every emotion, knowing it’s okay to just be contented.To every moment if this🥂🥂