Little pieces of me

I am not sure I am a people’s person but my mantra has always been to give people a safe space to vent.While it has been easy to let people vent I never do.It takes everything in me to open up to people especially the people around me.When I was falling apart no one knew.I had a smile on my face and pain in my heart.I realize now that it was a defence mechanism.So when I healed and left is when I could talk about it.Imagine the surprise when my friends and family found out.Today am writing about this because it just dawned on me that I no longer hide.Maybe I was hiding because I was hiding the pain ,the irony. Now am happy ,I take walks so long and am never tired.Am always smiling even when the things I’m my life aren’t going exactly as they should.I used to love nature but lately it’s more than loving it.Would you look at me now listening to a thousand years and smiling through it.I underestimated what healing would do because it has given me much more than I thought it would.It has given me joy ,peace and hope.Today I know that even my wildest dream will come true because I needed help and that is all the strength I needed to grow.Look at me now I connect to the glow even in the dark.I have someone that makes me laugh like crazy.I don’t take for granted this space that I am in.I may not always be here because nobody knows what tomorrow will bring and therefore I want to enjoy this.I want to breath in and feel the depth of my lungs.I want to care for may mental health so much that I know what to keep and what to let go.As a parent that chose intentional parenting I hope to influence the future generations in the most positive way possible.Its time to shine all the little pieces of me.Its time to live the dream because right here right now I am happy.And before I forget this is an answered prayer.Which is how I know that everything I have is because his grace is sufficient.