Above the Sky is the goal.

There was a time in my life when I could close my eyes and I couldn’t see a thing.There were no dreams,no joy,no pain no nothing just existence.Looking back i thought I was happy and trust me when I say really did think I was happy.In my lifeless existence I did so many things to convince myself I was okay.When those things weren’t enough anymore I said it loudly just to make sure I could hear it.Today I was doing one of the things that I enjoy doing.For many it is considered a tedious chore ,for me it is therapeutic and exciting.While I was doing that I realized something that I am okay,that when I close my eyes I can see so may things.When I close my eyes I have so many dreams.When my eyes are open I can feel the peace more than I can describe.Then I realized something else,that I have had this feeling for a while.The realization that I have been happy for so many months and then here is my favorite part that as the days go by It gets better.I cannot describe how grateful I am for this healing journey,it has been an amazing run.There are so many things I could mention that I have learnt to appreciate,but the most important one is, I have to be present in my right now.When the sun rises I have learnt to appreciate the morning chills,I have learnt to enjoy the morning routine.When it rains I have reminded myself how it used to feel when I used to love the sound of raindrops.Oh the beauty of the sunset ,the rush hour the beginning of darkness and the cold at night.I have embraced the beauty of it all and I can trully day that I am happy.I am happy that I made the choice,I am happy that I chose me.I am grateful that I left so I could be happy and I have achieved that ,I am happy.Now when I close my eyes I have so much I can see and so much I can dream about.And when I open my eyes I can see what is right in front me without missing any of it.When I look up the sky I know it reflects on the waters below and that’s what I want for my life.To look at what I want and realize it’s exactly what I have right here.